I SOMETIMES wonder what could be missing in my life. It’s not that I am too ambitious nor do I have insatiable desires. It’s just that I seem to live a life of mere routines.

I am doing a lot of things. I make people happy. I am doing my job well and I have good relationships with my superiors and colleagues. I am helping my family and I never gave my parents and my siblings any trouble at all. I have plenty of friends whom I go out with whenever time allows. I am doing my share of work in the church, fulfilling my duties as a Christian. But one thing is definitely missing.

I AM not bitter.

(I hope that by the end of this post, I have fully convinced myself. Haha.)

Seriously, I have never been loveless because my heart has always been  filled with love — not for a single person but for the humanity as a whole. Haha.

Whaah! This is such a stupid post.

I didn’t know Erik Erikson’s developmental stages is this serious. Ugh. Intimacy vs Isolation. I hate it.

Here’s my list of tips on How-To-Survive February 14:

• Never listen to Smother Me by The Used.

I’M NOT talking about tenses here nor about girlfriends.

I’ve never had a conversation with an online friend quite a long time. Just this afternoon, we had the chance to chat on Facebook.

Our conversation came to a point that he said he doesn’t have a future anymore. He told me that his parents used to tell him to always think about the future but until now, he said, that future hasn’t come.

Then I told him, “What you are today, was once your future. The future you are thinking of today will soon come. That future will become your present, and eventually, your past.”

JUST CURIOUS. Smart’s Bigtym Buddy Promo promised to give away a total of 50 Million Pesos, giving Php 500, 000.00 every day from September 11 to December 9, 2009,  Php 1, 000, 000.00 in three monthy draws, and Php 5, 000, 000.00 in the Grand Draw.

Very enticing promo.

Now, it’s already February and Smart still has not updated the Smart Bigtym Buddy List of Winners on their site. I also haven’t seen it aired on TV. I searched on the web also if someone has blogged about having won on the said promo but I found none.

PART OF my goals for 2010 is to master a new skill every month. For this month, I’m trying to learn Adobe Illustrator.

To relieve stress, I drew this simple graphic below before going home this afternoon:

I have a bit of obsession with sun rays these days. In fact, after posting this, I’ll drop by the beach to watch the sun as it meets the western sea.

IN THE last two years, I barely had enough time for introspection. I have been occupied with so many things that I did not notice my emotional and spiritual hunger.

My time had been spent on adjusting to my job and adjusting to life at home. I’ve been away from home since 2003 and it had been quite stressful to be living in a new environment at home.

I had a difficult time facing up to the new challenges. I’ve been living outside my comfort zone for most of the time and I am always treading new grounds. The responsibilities are greater and failing is never an option.

THIS IS just going to be a quick post.

I went to the home of a friend last night — after receiving a message that he has a problem.

He works in a supermarket. Someone complained about their product and he was blamed for negligence of duty.

If the complaint was legitimate, then he must take responsibility for it. He must face the sanctions.

But there are rumors that he was only framed up.

He lost interest already. He reported to work late the day after hearing from colleagues that he’ll be dismissed.