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LSS: I’m Yours by Jason Mraz

SOMETIMES I appreciate hardships because they make us realize that we need to change something about our ways. It is somehow a chance for us to renew ourselves and start something new.

To many of us, everytime we get over with something, we are eager to begin something new or engage in a new adventure. In my case, what I went through made me more passionate about everything I do. Even if I’m still quite ill after the stresses, I feel like I have lots of energy of keep going.

And for this blog, to mark this new chapter of my life, I have adopted a new layout for this blog. What you are seeing is a Zoxegen theme. I did a few modifications–just a few–to make it look like my old blog. I did that because I still like the look and feel of my old layout. But as you see, there are new features on the page. It has two sidebars bars now, to start with. It also has a section for featured articles. It sometimes doesn’t work with IE but the page looks fine.

AFTER THE convolution of emotional, financial, relationship, and health problems I wallowed in for the past few days, here I am again, blogging my heart out.

I am leaving behind all those hardships I have surpassed. I will face the coming with twice as much passion as I have shown in the past.

I am doubling the effort I am exerting for our summer classes. I am enjoying the time with my students and I am trying my best to give them all I can in preparation for their upcoming scholarship and other exams.

BUY ME a friend. A real friend.

This is the lowest point in my life. Ever.

I’ve never felt this kind of anger before. I’m angry at the world. I’m mad about UNREAL people. I’m so mad. I’m so mad. I’m so mad. I’m so mad. I’m so mad. I’m so mad.

Why is the world so unfriendly these days?

AS WE watch my father’s wake, I play chess with my older sister. It’s only in times like these that I get to play the game over and over. My classmates back in high school would never want to play with me because I used to be a very lousy player. Last night, as I played against my sister, I only won twice in about ten games. However, I have learned things I never would have learned if I never played the game again and again.

Here are some of my insights:

1. Life is what you make it. This existentialist belief is very evident in the game. Your victory lies on how well you play the game. Each move you make requires decision making and your choices create an impact on your future.

a. Clarify your goal. In a chess game, one wins not for how many officials he captures. The goal in Chess is to capture the King. In one of our games, my sister was playing without a Queen and some important officials but she still was able to capture my King. We sometimes lose track in life. If we do not know our purpose here in Earth, we are like a chess player who doesn’t know the objective of the game.

MAYBE, IT’S only the emotional turbulence I’m on now, but I just can’t get it:

 Why can’t the world be nice to you when you’re being nice to it?

Why…why…why…