WHEN I was a kid, my mother would always tell not to drink too much coffee because it makes one dull. Instead, she would coax me to take a lot of sleep, or else, my growth will be stunted. As a good kid, I obeyed her.

That was, before difficult challenges came my way that I had to stay awake 25 hours a day. In those times, coffee was my elixir.

These days, three fourths of my blood is caffeine. I need it to stay awake late in the night, when everyone?s already asleep. That?s the only time I can do what I need to do. Our house is really a big chaos during TV?s primetime.

I admit it?s very stressful here unlike in Marbel where my room?s a sanctuary. But this is home!

The physical setup of our house adds to the emotional burden I feel when I?m here. It?s difficult to cope but I?m glad I?m coping.

I?m only twenty and I am not yet ready to experience receding hair line and going through hairloss treatment.

This is just the beginning, I think.